You’re probably wondering what nonsense I’m yammering about now, but I’m not kidding you, the title fits these last 30 days. READ on if you want to know just how crazy this Canadian gal is.
Precisely one month ago, I decided I needed to improve my life and not just in the eating department. My state of mind needed a do over in the biggest of ways, and my soul was in even worse off. I’m grateful for the opportunity I needed the overhaul, but what I didn’t expect was that I’d keep doing what I was doing.
First, I started with a gratitude journal, then after watching a few YouTube videos and I read The Law of Attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks, I knew I was onto something great and started a journal for manifestation.
2.5 weeks later I added 10-20 minutes of meditation prior to doing my journal entries.
I am blown away by the sheer joy and peace in my heart right now. The words I’m using in my blog post aren’t doing the feeling any justice, but it was worth a try to convey my thoughts on what was probably the most trying of months in my adulthood.
While it may be true that there is a solution to every problem when you have the courage to step back and assess the situation from all perspectives. Admitting there’s a problem in the first place is the start.
For years I had been struggling with a crippling fear in finishing a manuscript I started back in 2012. It’s a romance I envisioned being in a lineup of one of three publishing houses I favoured. Yet, my skills were not where they needed to be for such a task and I shoved it off to the side. While I didn’t stop publishing other romances in this time, my mind was always thinking about said manuscript.
I finally set aside any fear and finished writing the whole stinkin’ book back in January in 8 whole days, but then when it came to working on the proposal and edit the first three chapters, that familiar fear crept in.
What a stupid, yet primal feeling fear is. I hate it, as many others do. So, in April I decided I needed a mindset reset (as Mel Robbins would say) and unexpectedly embarked on a month-long journey of journaling gratitude and manifesting my ideal now and future. It sounds hokey, but I promise you it isn’t.
Low and behold I am a changed woman and just as soon I could blink, a new opportunity at my ideal publishing house has opened up.
Here’s where I show my prowess at being a touch mad. Again.
My original plan was to do my writing sprint this August for this line. (See the Writing Challenge page in my menu for more information.) However, they are running a blitz this month, so the things I had planned for this month now have to be rescheduled, so I can focus on this new opportunity.
So, I’ve decided I will work on the first chapter and synopsis call for this blitz and then get back to work on my historical romance proposal for the same house. But in the same breath, if I can write that book in lets say 7.5 hrs of dictation, all that would need to be done is edit the rest of the chapters right, and that need not happen right away anyhow as they’ll be offering feedback on the first chapter, anyway. So what’s 7.5 hours really? That’s one weekend of locking myself up in my home office and dictating my butt off. It’s workable. I’ve done it a few times before. I think I’ve capped out at over 13k in one day before.
As you’ve surmised, I am embarking on another writing a book in a week self imposed challenge.
Hopefully, by the end of all this craziness I will have conquered my stupid fear of not being good enough. Its funny being a multi-published author with these fears. In fact, most authors feel this way from every stage in their career, so you’re never alone in that regard.
Anyway, I’ve taken up enough of your time today, so I’ll let you get back to it.
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Authors: if you’re interested in learning how to jack up your word count, I’m running a 30 day challenge this August. See the tab in menu above to sign up.
Until next time, au revoir and happy reading and writing.
xo – Layna